May 22.

I know. I haven't posted anything in this blog for months. Well, let's start.

I finally finished this semester. I forgot how hard school can be, especially in another language plus having a little man that gets angry if he doesn't have all my attention. The truth is that school was hard this semester, but I made it with good grades, I think. I will post them when I get them. Two more semesters and I will be done (hopefully). I got really sick because of allergy season, plus stress plus anything else that you can imagine.

Backyard.

I asked Jared to get our backyard landscaped. We spent so much money in this house, so let's just finish the backyard, so that is what we are doing. Jared is doing it all by himself, he is my hero. Below are some contemporary outdoor spaces that I like and my backyard is going to look something like this.

Olivia Palermo.

Another obsession I have now is clothes. I don't want to be trendy, I want to be bold (fashion people you know what I mean).

I like the style of this girl. Her name is Olivia Palermo. Seriously, look at those shoes. They are to die for, and the pants and the purse. She has great style.

And what about her hair! I just want her hair, the good thing is that I don't have to wait until my hair grows, I can go and get some hair extensions and style it like that.

By the way my hair is growing thicker and faster than before. I was so scared when I thought that my hair was falling forever but it was just until my body got better.

Make up, simple and sophisticated. Not looking like a clown is really classy.

For other great inspirations check out this website:

http://www.whowhatwear.com/website/home.php

Anniversary #6

To be honest with you, I can't believe I have been married for six years. To me it feels as if we are still dating. I'm so happy and grateful for my Jared, he is the best. I must say that one thing that I love about Jared is that he has never pressured me to do anything I don't want to. He is always so calm and loving. I see other couples where the husband pressures the wife to work, when she clearly doesn't want to do it, or other things. I'm happy with my guy.

I made this for dinner on day one (we have a two day anniversary).

Fancy eh? Yes, that is another of my hobbies now, to make exquisite food and make it look fancy. I have been taking pictures for a while of my culinary creations so every chance I get I will post them and if you are interested in the recipe let me know.

Happy Mother's day to me.

I couldn't resist to post these pictures of Mario from Easter.

Those are Mario's friends Elle and Ethan Holbrook.

Good news so far.

Last week I didn't go to church. It was the worst week ever because everybody at home got sick, I got my period and my grades went down for not reason.

This Sunday I went to church and I sang in the choir, taught my class in primary and sent emails to my teachers asking why my grades for the week were so low. This week my grades went up(teachers make mistakes, who knew?), so far I have an A in the class, Mario is getting better from his cold and Jared is almost sano. I got some money from financial aid which is going to help us to pay some bills and buy some furniture. My mom's surgery went well too. She is fine and recuperating the best she can at the clinica Gomez Patiño ( I haven't heard that clinica name before). My only regret is that I wish I was in the hospital taking care of her. Oh well, at least they are coming at the end of March...hopefully.

The best new of all so far for me is that I got a new endocrinologist. Dr Sawyer is really good and expensive, but she is worth it. A friend from church recommended her and I didn't have to wait a month to go and see her! I had a friend pulled some strings so I could get early.

I know I can't get cure but I know I can get better with the right kind of medical help.

Week2.

I'm kicking butt in my pilates class. I'm doing really well, and I lost two inches of my waist. I haven't lost any more weight, but I'm enjoying my life right now. I love my classes, I love being able to stay at home and take care of my child. I'm glad Jared supports me in my goals, that makes it so much easier. At the end of this year I will graduate. I'm so happy, I started school here 5 years ago and that is including english as second language classes because I couldn't speak or write anything. I'm really proud of my accomplishments. Slowly but steady.

Week 1, day1.

First day of school. Yesterday I found out that some of my classes are just 8 weeks! I'm happy about that, but at the same time that means more work in a short amount of time.

Yesterday I walked three miles, had a pilates class for one hour and forty five minutes, later I went to the gym at the community college and trained for forty five minutes in between elliptical and a bike. I got home at 9 pm. I'm so glad that Jared is supporting me in this stuff that I'm doing. Today I will meet with a trainer name Barbara who is going to give me a cardio plan to slim down. I'm giving up candy, pasta and bread. Today I also have an exercise class in the water. Exciting! I didn't take any pictures yet of me in the classes, but I will.

Solo faltan horas para que el año se acabe y todavia no he podido pensar en metas y cosas que quiero hacer para el año que viene. La verdad, el 2009 fue terrible para mi, muchas pruebas y muchos momentos dificiles. Es facil mirar ahora hacia detras y decir "yo sobrevivi eso", pero no quiero volver a pasar por momentos asi. Aprendi de que no todo el que dice que esta, de verdad esta, aprendi que la sangre no pesa mas que el agua con algunos familiares, aprendi que en momentos dificiles puedo echar para adelante sin tener que mirar al lado a ver quien me ayuda, puedo hacerlo yo sola. El 2009 me hizo mas fuerte, me hizo ver mis amigos, mis enemigos, me hizo ver que yo me levanto super rapido apesar de caerme mil veces por rocas en el camino. El 2010 va a ser mi año, el 2010 va a ser especial y favorecedor. Voy a crecer y a vivir mi vida, sin importar lo que el otro piense, voy a enfocarme en mi por primera vez en años y en mi familia (Jared y Mario). Todo en la vida tiene un tiempo, ahora es mi tiempo para crecer y disfrutar de lo que cultive.

Ayer despues de un dia largo, Jared recibio una llamada de que una persona que conocemos cometio suicidio. No era amiga de el, la verdad chocaba siempre con el señor pero nunca habia conocido alguien que realmente fuera capaz de hacerlo. Cuando Jared me lo dijo algo dentro de mi se rompio y empeze a llorar. El señor no era mi amigo, ni me caia bien y yo se que yo tampoco le caia bien pero escuchar que alguien podria quitarse la vida es demasiado para mi, especialmente si lo conocia. Desde anoche no he podido dejar de llorar y de pensar en ese persona. Talves yo pude haber echo algo para hacerlo sentir mejor? talves no. No era amigo, era un conocido pero duele, pensar que alguien se sienta tan solo y desperado que vea suicidio como su unica salida. Yo he sufrido de depresion porque me abrumo con mis problemas de salud y siento que no hay salida y hay dias que no quiero despertar, pero lo hago por Mario, pero escuchar alguien quitarse la vida me hace tan triste porque todo tiene una salida aunque no lo vea. Llorar ayuda a limpiar el alma, en dias que me siento mal mis oraciones que suenan mas como reproches a Dios duran una hora o mas, y cuando acabo me siento mejor, me siento liberada y lista para recibir la siguiente carga en la vida. Es facil sentirse solo, en un mundo con mas de 3 billones de personas y no sentirse conectado con nadie, pero yo voy a ser el esfuerzo de acerca a personas que aunque no me agraden, no voy a dejar algo asi le pase alguien que yo conozca. Es horrible, me siento super mal, super triste por ese senor. Yo espero que el Padre lo este consolando donde sea que el este.

Today is a big day!!!

Truck is pack, I'm ready, Jared is ready, Mario needs to get ready. We are Ready!!!